Day 62: Nov. 22, 2013

So grateful for an opportunity to meet awesome women last night through my friend Wynnie.  We convened for the purpose of listening to each other and celebrating having a voice/story to tell.  Using the Trust Your Vibes card set by Sonia Choquette we took turns speaking.  It was very much like a Zelig circle where the first person talks for three minutes about anything they want to, all others listen.  Then the others speak one at a time for one minute saying what they observed the other person saying, not offering criticism, just feedback on when they saw the speaker "light up" and then the original speaker gets another opportunity to reiterate what they learned from hearing the feedback.  This very much reminded me of the ZEGG Forum I was able to participate in at Song of the Morning two summers in a row (2010 and 2011) during teens and twenties week.  Last night I drew a card from the Trust Your Vibes deck that was completely perfect for what I need/where I am in my life right now and I just had to share that.  It was "Clear Your Path."  There was an image of a person who was holding a lamp or a staff that was connected to the sun.  I saw a dove on the left and a heart with wings.  A chain was broken and an unlocked lock across the center and above the person.  In the lower right there was an image of a guardian.  It spoke to me immediately as not dwelling on the past and having learned to live in the present moment and being grateful for all of my experiences/not holding on to resentment.

Wynnie's was "Body Talk" 

Ellie's was "Tell Your Story"

Kim's was "Play"

Connie's was "Solutions"

I loved hearing these other women share their insight and stories.  I was especially struck by Connie's discussion of discovering that we all have a "sacred wound" that occurred to us at an early age and effects the way we interact with others/can help explain our emotional responses to certain situations. I know mine.  I don't know the exact age I was but it was a particular thing one of my parents said to me that greatly explains where my anxiety and sadness comes from.  I feel like it isn't something I should write about on here, not yet at least.  Trying to decide if it is something I should share with this other person or if by simply knowing/recognizing the hurt and honoring my sacred wound I can come to respond with more love and understanding.

Today's yoga class with Jan was beautiful.  4:30 Slow Burn.  She was subbing for Jill who had a family emergency.  Jan set up candles and provided aromatherapy which was a great way to slow down and appreciate a Friday afternoon.  I really got into my body and was able to keep my eyes closed throughout the duration of the class.  I was not really aware of who was around me although I could feel the energy in the room and was aware of breathing around me.  I appreciated this flow and feel like it nourished my soul.  Jan has a way with words where she always says something applicable.  May I also have the power to stir people's souls and give inspiration.

It was Jen's birthday today.  I celebrated with her, Patrick, Ceri, Jesse, Accala, Betsy, John, Phoebe and Nick(?) who were all the way at the other end of the table.  It was a fun meal out.  Italian cuisine. I had to turn down wine.  Twice.

Work has been good.  Stressful at times, specifically when learning more of the back story of how things were before Tina and I started there.  I'm still processing what I have heard.  Trying to interpret  what it means for me and my safety.  I should be fine but apparently Sam and Al have been threatened by disgruntled members.

As for my blog, I am not going to try and backtrack at this point but if I make references to missing dates I will be fine with that.  I needed more time for myself these past two weeks and perhaps my daily blogging as an expectation worked fine when I had a more flexible schedule but right now I'm busy M-F 5 a.m. to 8:30 p.m. and then I'm too exhausted to write.  I know it is a daily discipline but I might not take it as seriously as needing to mediate, study or do physical practice.  Now it is after 10:00 Friday evening and I need to go to sleep.  I felt a little headachy and stuffy at work today, hoping to ward off any pending sickness.  Goodnight.