Another day of resistance. It has been so long since I have followed my daily disciplines to a T. I keep making peace with my choices and yet I continue to feel challenged to get on the straight and narrow path.
I do feel like I have incorporated many aspects of my yoga practice/lessons into my daily be-ing, but there are certain practices I continue to resist (i.e. daily practice with others, weekly teaching practice, meditation).
I successfully eat mindfully. I mind my breath. I am aware of empathetic listening. I am aware of my intuition and my feelings (as well as sensing others' feelings). I sleep more soundly. I act with more dedication in my work. I make time for myself and for others. I am able to say yes and no without hesitation. I make more time for play. I have more gratitude and I give more willingly. I have less fear and more motivation. I am more accepting of change and challenges. While I don't feel like I want to instruct at this time I feel like I have grounded myself and made a new beginning (and that I have permission to "start again" every day).
I have 50 days left of my program. 7 weeks, 1 day. I will make the most of it. Tomorrow through Tuesday are supposed to be the coldest days of winter. I am not sure I will make it to class as I had to have my car towed this morning (it started but it was much louder than it has ever been before and I did not feel safe driving it to a mechanic). I know that I can use my mother's car to get to class but I don't really want to put myself in danger with the bitter cold temperatures. We shall see how I feel when I wake up.
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